Sometimes certain things are best left unsaid
But then I never realize how bad I've truly been
Everything is not in order but the cradle
Of life must go on and then will I have truly seen.
I am just a fool succumbing to my ridiculous thoughts
Problem is that those very thoughts are paving the way
For the difficult times that we face, and I brought
Them upon you, it's so disgusting I begin to sway.
I am repulsed with who I am and what I've always been
Being a hypocrite, I talk bad of men who have faces
Like me, I don't know why it took you so long to see
The real me, the depraved being that is my case.
Now I am scared of your knowledge and to what it may lead
Things haven't been happening quite the way I would
Like them to be, and I'm afraid I may be laying the seed
Of something, the only thing that ever shivered me as I stood.
But then we should both open up to each other
If it isn't too late, I may still mend things
You already know of my true colours
But I may still change that and then it won't all sting.
A boyfriend and lover aren't the same
I did not understand what that meant
What I do know is that I am to blame
Everything about me, my horrid stench.
Because baby, I dearly love you and would gladly die
For you if that is be required of me.
To see you happy, if I must then I would cry
Until the time when I would have to set you free.
Until that fated day must arrive
I will care for you in all ways that you may need
None of your needs shall I deprive
Because I will always love you, even after I have set you free.